The days in the life of...

So, I have been thinking about blogging lately and trust me I've tried to start many different blog sites and never get anywhere. I want to share my views of the world and my day to day life and job; being a 22 year old mother of twin boys.

The other day I was emailing back and forth with my grandmother and she sent me this:

"Rachel: You are a good writer. I know your life is exhausting, but if you could write a little each day, you might surprise yourself." I was surprised myself, when I read that. My grandmother has been a teacher for many years, kind of a bitch for many years (you know the type of woman who is "in charge" of everything and you just have to go with it.... that would be her. We have had an off and on relationship for a long time, due to alcohol and differences in opinions of events that occurred. We are pleasant to one another, primarily because we are related. We have some good memories. Those were the good ole' days.

Anyway. This blog is not about my grandmother. I am a strong girl that wants to be right about everything, even if I am not. I will voice my opinions here on everything in the world... my life, politics, entertainment, etc. I am very opinionated as well. I understand that all of our opinions are different, and I hope that when you read this blog that you understand that too. I want to give everyone a chance to see what someone else has to say about things.

Also, I want to share my life with the world, primarily. I am 22 (almost 23) years old and I have been married for two years to the love of my life, I have twin identical boys who are 7 months currently. I have been struggling, just like all moms do, I suppose. I don't know what to do about certain things, I get really pissy about stupid things, I get tired easily, but I love my children. I am so proud to be a mother of twins. I feel better than every other mom out there, because not only have I had to raise one baby, there is another one to tend to as well. My boys are bigger than some of my friends babies. Some babies mamma's that are friends of mine try so hard to brag about their baby doing things that I HIGHLY doubt they are doing. Of course with my cockiness, comes my self confidence issues. I dislike what I look like, I try really hard to look good, but I also eat too much sometimes and am pretty darn lazy.

Today is Monday, the first day of the week... My husband has Friday, Saturday and Sunday off every week, so when Monday shows up, it always sucks. I wake up alone. Right there that sucks. I take care of the boys ALL day long and do every single chore I can get my hands on before my husband comes home, not that I in anyway am forced to do all the chores. I like to do chores, sometimes. Today, so far, I tried to clean the kids toys in the sink with some bleach water (saw a Bleach commercial and just had to do it). Well, I plugged up the sink with one of those black things and washed the toys, but the little black thing is now jammed really tight in the sink.... I am so worried there is no way to fix it. :( Stupid me.

We have been trying to "ferberize" the kids... which means we are using the "Cry it out" method of getting them to sleep at night. So far, we lasted two hours and then we couldn't handle it. Screaming children is sad to hear. I worry that they will turn into Super nanny children if we don't do this now. It is so frustrating. One day at a time, I suppose.

Well, this is all I am blogging for right now. I need to take care of the boys, play time! I will keep everyone posted everyday, if I can. Please love this blog and take what you want from it, some things you may hate, but some you might actually enjoy and understand yourself. Only Love!